It All Comes Down to the Chocolate

My kingdom for some cacao nibs! I had been searching through my local healthfood store and grocery for cacao nibs- a healthy form of chocolate that is super high in magnesium and low in caffeine. Yes, like in Woody Allen's Sleeper, junk food is actually healthy. At least in cacao nib form. I was coming up with nothing and put the desire aside for more "important" ones...

Then I got a series of emails about a the latest, greatest technology for Law of Attraction (LOA) addicts. That is, those of us who desire to manifest more consciously, so that we attract what we want, not what we do not want in our lives. I was at first skeptical, then wowed by the simple yet powerful way a guy made videos you watch online about what you want in your life. They are called "Mindmovies". I think this is going to be the biggest thing since "The Secret". They give you 6 premade videos and then you can send away for a kit to make your own. Pretty cool! I was ready to order when....

This voice in my head began. It was a familiar voice saying "Do you really need this to attract what you want in your life?" "You've read all the books, listened to all the CDs...how is this going to help you...really?" I could rationalize that this was the one to put me over the top, the detail I was missing, you know the rest. But, something was stopping me. It wasn't money. It wasn't doubt in the product- I'm sure it is everything they say. It was that I knew that I have a tendency to believe that I don't have the answers inside. That I need to listen to someone else to get the answers. In the past, if I had a dilemma, I would survey my friends for answers. I would call them one by one and tell them the dilemma over and over and then see what came up. It was like I had 20 magic 8 balls with 20 different answers. Then I'd pick the one I liked best. I've stopped this practice. I've come pretty far...but that kit to make a movie looked good. Maybe this was the tool that would help LOA work for me, the way I wanted.

The voice was strong enough (or I was listening enough this time) to recognize that I could not get sucked into that belief again. The belief that I needed to look outside myself for answers. I took a couple of breaths and then asked myself what would happen if I passed this one out. Nothing terrible. I could always decide to buy the kit later (even if it was half off only for now). I was doing fine without it. I was keeping my thoughts on the positive side, I was in the flow most of the time, I was attracting small but significant stuff to me daily- if I noticed it. I took my finger off the paypal button and relaxed..

Of course I got about 6 follow-up emails encouraging me to not pass on this special offer. By that time I had made the decision and was not wavering. It felt good. Then this morning I got another email from the same company with a video about nutrition and health. I watched it primarily to pass it on to friends in that biz. In the middle of the video I saw a bag of, you guessed it, cacao nibs flash by! It caught my eye and the next thing I know I'm at their website ordering a bag. Yippee! I found cacao nibs!

So, what does this all mean? My simplest answer for myself is this: Sometimes when you decide to believe something new, you get what you've been looking for from the beginning. I know it sounds ridiculous to conclude that perhaps what I was really looking for was cacao nibs. But, look at the conclusion. Perhaps all those emails came to me to force me to face (allow me to choose to face) my "addiction to the outside" and choose something different. When I did choose something different, the road opened up. The road to new possibilities for myself and within myself. And yes, the road to chocolate that is healthy. It all comes down to the chocolate.