Is Your Saboteur Showing Up?

Not so long ago, I had a run-in with my Saboteur. She's the part of you who seems to put obstacles to your dreams in your way. She's the one who can talk you out of anything.

This time, she was cleverly disguised as a loving, very rational friend who was looking out for me. And, in fact, she has that intention most of the time. However, she made it her duty to tell me all the horrible things that were to happen if I moved forward with a project that I had been dreaming about for some time. How did I know if it was going to turn out OK? I need to pull back, look at all my options, have my guard up.

It was difficult at first to figure out how much was her, just doing her thing, and how much was my inner wisdom guiding me to be cautious. So, I decided to ask some reasonable questions of the other people involved with this project and got some satisfactory answers. And then the next issue came into play. I stopped again, riddled with confusion, doubt, mistrust. I could have discussed this project and all the options with hundreds and even though it all sounded reasonable and logical, I would still be stymied and stuck.

That pattern of being stuck and confused and then OK for a little and then stuck and confused again led me to the conclusion that my Saboteur was showing up. She's there to stop me when I am process of manifesting my desires and this was a big one.

My coach then reminded me of all the great accomplishments that I have achieved as a result of working on this project. In fact, the most important part was complete. The rest was gravy. I thought about all the great success that I have enjoyed by allowing myself to feel the connection with my HigherSelf and how it has affected my work, my family, my friends, and this project. I started to appreciate all the things that I had learned. This appreciation helped to shift my thoughts and feelings. I realized that everything was clear and fine. My paralysis was about keeping the continued manifestation of this project away and no longer a wise sign of going slow.

I decided to have a little chat with my friend the Saboteur. She could be confident that I took her needs seriously and yet still go forward. I would take her hand and walk through the door with her. And when I made that decision, it was like an energy flood-gate was opened. Within a day I took two huge steps forward in this project. There was one piece that had a two week delay and so I blessed that delay and used it to review some details. The process was exciting and filled with "Yahoo!" and "I did it!" I celebrated each step. It felt great!

So, is your Saboteur showing up? Look for the signs: confusion, doubt, mistrust, fear, paralysis. Did you confirm things and still not feeling good about moving forward? Do you see the horror stories before you? Do you want something, but just can't take another step toward its manifestation? Perhaps it's time for a chat. A kind, gentle, but firm chat with your Saboteur. Yes, she has something to contribute and you will listen to her, but it will not stop you from moving toward your dream. Take her hand and take the next step.